My city...Montreal

Anyone born here will tell you the same thing. Everything in Montreal is boring. After you've been around the club circuit, the Haitian parties and crowds, you can't help but have a bitter taste in your mouth about the nightlife.

I have always been an adventurer, willing to explore and try different things. That's why I have taken the plunge and travelled alone. It takes courage and it takes a good dose of impulsiveness to strike out on your own or to try something new. Once you do, there is nothing to stop you!

For my "aww...I don't know what to do today" types, please know that there is a life out there after you've gone through your 4th season of Criminal Minds (I am currently watching that one...loll!). You don't have to restrict yourself in to going back to the same things you know and begrudgingly don't want to do but still do for lack of imagination and guts.

For the sport fans: the NBA finals are starting, go grab a drink & wings at a local bar. Bring a friend or two to change your atmosphere. The women's FIFA finals is stopping in Montreal. Fans of soccer, the tickets are not the pricey and I guarantee that you'll watch a good game.

Foodies, this is specially for you! Places to eat are a dime a dozen in this city. depending on what you are looking for. Trust that there is something to taste!

Food trucks are the newest attraction in Montreal. Back for a 2nd season, you can grab a bite on the go if you happen to spot a truck. Wanna know which is in your area? Check out this site (updated daily): f00d.ca/montreal.

My tastebuds have been craving some Jerk Chicken and I have been served. Chef Jae-Anthony has been incredibly generous to my stomach takes to his talent and food. Wanna check him out? Easy, his place delivers!!!! Go peek at his facebook or IG by searching Seasoned Dreams. Or you can also happen to go to bar En Cachette (St-Denis & Ontario) on a Tuesday evening, say 7pm to get a taste.

Another place to try is La barake (labarake.com). Althought I haven't had the opportunity to taste their food, a very cute bartender made me a specialty cocktail that I could not refuse. If the amount of people present during the celebration of their 1st anniversary is any indicator of their success. This girl (me) is about to move her birthday to August, just so that I can celebrate on their amazing terrasse. Trust me, its fab!!

Art buffs: Although the free Museum day has gone by, there is definitely stuff to see. Go check out the Musée des beaux arts (www.mbam.qc.ca), Musée McCord (www.musee-mccord.qc.ca) or the Société des arts technologies (sat.qc.ca).

Let's not forget our music addicts: There are so many shows and concerts lined up for this summer that you are bound to find something to suit your fancy. Big names such as Erika Badu, Joss Stone, Boukman Expérience, Drake, Nicki Minaj and more are only a few that are coming through this year.

That's all I had to say, peeps. You ain't go no excuse to complain, if you can't travel (I know how expensive it can be), you can make alternate plans. There is something for everyone, you just gotta get off the coach and look for it!!

After dark...

Once the twilight has arrived and silence has taken over, the restlessness comes.

How many times have you crossed my mind? Deep down in the buried parts of my soul, I still relive the echoes of you.

How can one forget and forge on when all I can seem to think about is the essence of you? Its after dark and I cant see past the sky.

In the land between dream and hope, we still live and remain. In the land between my fantasy and our reality, we still are.

I still feel you by my side. The rumblings of your heart still shake my core and all I wish to do is place my lips upon yours.

After dark, time seems to run away but these moments remain. After words and apologies, misguided notions and tragedy, we still are separately.

When will a skipped beat become a shudder and the sights become whispers. After dark, nothing else matters but this.

The loneliness and wanton, the debilitating cravings of my soul that are attempting to reach out to you.

How many times have I murmured your name? Calling for you to come, to stay, to say that nothing has changed.

Putting these words into existence is like peeling a layer of you away. The pain I feel finds no shame in being here. Despite everything, my wish is still.

Having you with me, 

After dark...

Guilty...

Guilty pleasures, scented treasures. My mind remembers you. The smell of you.

So male, so clean, so unpure...

My mind misses you. The feel of your skin against mine, your lips on my thighs. Your hands...mine.

So male, so clean, so untrue...

Guilty pleasures, scented treasures. My heart beats for you. In sync with your rythm.

Slipping and sliding. Gently swaying. Carried away by the sound of your voice.

Rushing, groping... Why are we fumbling? How can this be true and leave me so blue.

So male, so clean, so you...

How i'll miss the weight of you. I will continue to carry you because your touch spoke of us.

How you appealed to the deepest part of me? Will i ever know more than you?

Guilty pleasures, scented treasures. Without us, my soul remembers you.

Mélomane

La musique...

Ma source d'inspiration, consolation constante de tous mes petits maux. Amie dans mes moments d'égarement, de réflexion et plus encore.

Quel que soit le genre choisi, l'instrument utilisé, les paroles sont ce qui m'accrochent le plus. Il y a tellement de force dans les mots. Tellement d'émotions véhiculées à travers un enchaînement simple. Une succession qui atteint un parfait et qui communique directement avec le coeur.

Chaque style viendra vous chercher différemment et vous transportera dans un monde hors du commun. On écoute la musique, ressent l'émotion mais on vit les paroles. Le désarroi, le désespoir, l'amour, la joie, la tristesse, la colère, la révolte et j'en passe....

Comment vous sentez-vous lorsque vous vous enfermez dans votre esprit? Àquoi pensez-vous en plein réflexion pendant que ceci joue:

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Love is a battlefield...

Love is a battlefield where everyone is a casualty. When you enter that field for the first time, the only advice you'd have gotten is to go with the flow, be careful not to fall for anything or anyone. Without any real indication of what you should watch out for. As you walk through and really start living you realize that most of what you thought is not as it seems. Things have changed and still are.

Everybody is trying to attain that sense of perfection in a relationship. Even in the most platonic friendship, we prompt ourselves to react a certain way to certain things. We are looking at a greyish world with blue coloured glasses and we don't seem to realize that each and everyone of us are currently all misguided in some way. When have we lost our sense of wonder and amazement???

Our world has become so jaded that a broken relationship will bring a slight moment of rejoice and contentment to some of us. Shameful you say, yes... 

Others have become insensitive to the plight of the world and are forging on blindly stomping on the people around them. Is it because of their inability to feel and relate or just an actual defense mechanism?

What happened to honesty, trust, loyalty, fairness, genuineness and love? Whatever vacation they're on, let me know i'll join...

This period of our life is utterly disconcerting. And I am absolutely clueless because I feel like I am playing a game where the rules are constantly changing. Where they are completely disregarded at times but hey! Thats ok...

All of us, we are actors in each others lives and sadly we are all playing with each others hearts... All this without even realizing the impact it has on each and single one of us.

Why has it become necessary to put on a face or an appearance to act what the world wishes to see instead of really showing what is lacking, pursuing what is needed? Why is it now ok to lie and deceive, putting up appereances therefore placing someone's fragile expectations on a glass platter before shattering it?

Shouldn't we be striving to have more, to pursue the kind of love we deserve? The kind that sweep you off your feet every time it comes to you in the form of that one true. The kind that provokes shivers by a thought, a yearning created by a memory. Something that will actually count for more in this world than being a word, an idea, a concept... Or a simple dream.

Yes I have been in love, at least I like to think I was. I like to believe that my feelings have always been true and real. Whether or not the feeling and attention that was reciprocated was genuine will always be the most debilitating question?

I have started to tell myself this: Broke my heart but my soul aint made of glass.

Why, you're thinking (maybe)? Because, in this day and age, we are living with so much insecurity. so much fear inside that we forget that a broken heart is just a passing pain and not the end of life or love in itself but it is a blessing. The opportunity to learn and grow from an experience that will allow you to find what God has intended you to have.

Again, broke my heart but my soul aint made of glass. Why? Because my soul is pure, its strong, its worthy and blessed. It deserves more than what some are willing to receive, to have. Thats my concept. What is yours? 

The "Last" Hour...

As I am typing these words, these are the last minutes before I enter a new decade. The last hour before eveything changes. As many of you know, I am officially turning 30 in a few minutes and while I have lived a short life, I feel like I have gone through so many chapters of it.

So many things have happened to me; some good and some bad. I lost friends, found old one, gained many. I have acquired and have been enriched by the presence of many of you in my life that I cannot stop myself from comparing me to an excellent wine.

Grown and aged just enough to be tasteful but still young enough to retain that spark..loll!!!

What I really wish to say is no matter where you are in life, you are only there because you have travelled this far. Whether you continue on or stay put, you are farther than where you started and not yet at destination.

I thank God for all the gifts he has bestowed upon me, for the people who have crossed my path to enrich or teach. Despite the many mistakes that I have already made and will continue to make. I stand my head high and proud.

Grateful for far more than I ever though possible and humbled. On this note, I thank you in advance for the many wishes that I will receive, for taking your time and sharing it with me no matter how long and for accepting me with my flaws and all.

I carry you all in my heart.

Oh..!!! right, Happy Birthday to me!!!!

P.S. Thank you Google!

THE MYTH OF THE DIRTY "30"...

 Well, for those who know me and for all those 1983 babies, we are reaching or have already reached a milestone. The most feared and anticipated, highly expected "THIRTIETH" year of age.

That special year where in a perfect world, you have attained your goals and realized your dreams. Finally, the young professional has become a woman, rocking that big stone on her sacred finger, has her perfect family in tow and wondrous property in the suburbs. A very sarcastic and ironic view but one most of us girls have been yearning for all or for most of our lives

 In the last few months, weeks before that turning point, you will systematically analyze, reflect, amend, critic and review so many aspect of your existence that you may feel like you have been living a lie. If not a lie, maybe a dream from where you'll wake up with a bitter taste of what reality has in store. That is in my definition the myth of the dirty "30".

That grimmy taste of failure that will and may colour every epic moment and adventure live until now. That pallid past completely eclipsed by an empty and incomplete future...

Don't get me wrong, I admire those who have had the guts, strength, perseverance, ambition to pursue what they wanted to obtain and I applaud you with the utmost admiration. But for all the rest of us, soul searchers, the hardest part is coming.

The questions: How old are you, now? 30!!!! hmm...! How come you are still single, not married, you don't have any kids, you're still working there..??? The best one: What's wrong with you? And so on..lolll!!! Many of you are probably laughing right now because you have been, like me, interrogated thoroughly I may say, on these simple signs of true realization.

The answers: Well, I haven't found the one yet; I'm waiting for the right moment to make my career move, I'm working on other stuff, I am not ready to settle down, I just bought a house, the gentlemen I met are somewhat lacking, still playing. I am taking my time. Simple truths that should be accepted, that have been used for a number of years but suddenly these answers become highly frowned upon. WOW!!!

Well if you ask me, entering this new chapter is scary as hell. I mean what do I do, or should I do...?!? Is this the end of my life as I know it, will I instantaneously become this parody of a woman (single mother living in an apartment), chasing an ideal and waiting for the "ONE" or that "THING". Will I finally reach that mountain top and be able to scream "Victory" at the top of my lungs? Some insecurities....

This constant state of questioning, specially now that I... you... we are entering this new decade, is the plague of our existence. You see some that have done so many great things and you somewhat feel lacking. Maybe I didn't try hard enough, maybe there is something wrong with me, maybe this...or maybe that!

My crucial day is racing forward and I have had an epiphany: What if I had all I could ask for...?

I have my life, my health, my intelligence, my gift for words, my family, my great friends, my wonderful daughter, my fulfilling job, my romantic optimism, my dreams...Should I go on? I think you see where I'm going with this.

Do you have everything you need, at this exact time when you see all the good things in life...? Tell me.